"before going down (nothing as it seems)"

i looked outside your window
thought of all these things i can't control
i know i've gone too far for me to flee
nothing as it seems (nothing is ever as it seems)

something's gone and
i don't know how to get it back
i figured you'd want to know
if i was going away

  and so today there is a story told
  about nothing and where to find it
  and yet i know i still need to take the blame
  and learn the reasons for it all
  before going down...

i had hoped it wouldn't be so soon
before i'd have to speak
but my wings of hope
soared over rivers of fear

looking for wisdom, looking for answers
doubting the reasons why i'm still here
reasons i shouldn't fear
nothing as it seems (nothing ever as it seems)

  and so today there is a story told
  about nothing and where to find it
  and yet i know i still need to take the blame
  and learn the reasons for it all
  before going down...